Raindrops

The sound of raindrops has always annoyed me. It reminded me too much of my past. Though I can hardly remember what I did. Hold on a second. How did I get here? Why did my feet bring me to this corner of the street? What was I doing before this? Then, I see you appearing from around the corner in a dark coloured shirt and a pair of faded jeans. Messy hair, just the way I liked it. You gave me a weak smile and evaporated into thin air. You left me there screaming your name, begging for you to come back. Then, I was in my room again.

I looked around and there you are, lying ever so still on the bed by my side. Everything looked pretty normal. "Don't wake me up", was written all over your face. You probably stayed out late last night so I figured I would let you sleep in. I gave you a peck on the forehead and went to start my day. I cleaned the house because a spotless house carves a million dollar smile on your face. I loved your smile. I got rid of the dead body stench that has been lingering around the house since Miss Scarlett from next door died. It was already 10 o'clock and you're still asleep. I decided to take a nap myself.

In my dreams, I was in a restaurant. There you are flashing your charming smile at me from across the dinner table. Our first date. One of my happiest moments with you. How brave of you to ask a stranger out on a dinner date. You could have picked any random girl from that corner of the street but you picked me. Plain old me. You walked me home and kissed me goodnight. My parents yelled at me and threatened to kick me out of the house because you were not oriental like me. I didn't care. You were all that mattered at this point.

After about two years of courtship, ups and a lot of downs, we finally got married. We bought a small house on the outskirt of town, away from the hustle bustle of the city. Most importantly, away from the judgemental eyes of the society. Our lifes were peaceful and serene and I just know that we are going to grow old together. Your parents were equally as bad as mine. So, we are basically alone out here in the big scary world. No one to turn to if we're in trouble. No one to talk to but each other and Miss Scarlett from next door.

I came home from the market one day and find her naked and lying on the bed. Our bed. She looked as surprised to see me as I was to see her. you came in butt naked and said you're ready for more but quickly realised my presence. All sorts of feeling and emotion came pouring out. Cheated on, lied to, angry, upset, disappointed, hurt. I started throwing my groceries around and went completely berserk. I gave up my family, my education and my uptown life for this man. This man who ended up cheating on me with the red head next door.

It started raining. Scarlett grabbed her clothes and tried to make a run for it. I grabbed her by her fiery red hair and she jerked backwards and gave a shriek of pain. I slapped her so hard and yelled insults into her face. She kept crying and apologising. You stood there and watched. You didn't attempt to break us up because you understood my anger. I was so blinded by my fury, I grabbed the fruit knife on our coffee table and stabbed Scarlett with it.

Blood started gushing out. Her cry was even louder than before. You came towards me and gave me slap and started yelling at me. You were protecting her. That whore that lives next door. You slapped me. Your wife. As you came to her side and calmed her with your hypnotising words, I gripped my knife even tighter and stabbed you in the neck What have I done? I killed my own husband. The knife fell out of my hand and landed on the ground with a loud clang. You and Scarlett were surrounded by a pool of blood.

I mopped up the blood ever so carefully. I buried Scarlett in our backyard. You? I injected embalming liquid into your body and sprayed the whole house with air freshener. The air freshener did not help. I carried you into bed and let you sleep. I took a warm bath and slept next to you. Then, I woke up. Now I know why I hate my past.

Kill my husband I did not. Look. He's right next to me. Sleeping so soundly. It started raining again. The sound of raindrops has always annoyed me. It reminded me too much of my past. Though I can hardly remember what I did. Hold on a second. Isn't this the corner where I first saw you?


Written by,
Monica Chen :DD